Oh god, I can’t even read, it’s too exciting! Just look at these words -

“The soul answered: ‘Why do you judge me, since I have made no judgement? I have been dominated, but I myself have not dominated. I have not been recognised, but I myself have recognised that all things which are composed shall be decomposed, on earth and in heaven.”

How fucking amazingly beautiful are these words??? I can’t even sit down and read the book because those words make me too happy, excitable and bouncy. Weee! :multi: :greenfire:

I got a package in the post today containing, “The Gospel of Mary Magdalene” by Jean-Yves Leloup and “Good News For People Who Love Bad News” by Modest Mouse. The former I bought on the recommendation of Amanda Sage and my god was she right! Oh why can’t I shove my finger in a hole and imbibe it all RIGHT NOW!!! Oh cursed be you movies, putting these ideas into my head. Why can’t I head spin and know it all? Why can’t I open the book, take a deep breath and suck the words deep down inside of me. My lungs a vacuum cleaner for the sustenance of my brain…

(Incidentally, I am also reading, “Life a Users Manual” by Georges Perec, “The Last Days of Socrates” by Plato and “The Colossus of Maroussi” by Henry Miller.)

So, now I am all the way back to wanting to do the BA in Religion at SOAS. Until about 23 minutes ago, (i.e. before La Poste arrived), I was back with wanting to continue with my Women’s Studies degree at my old uni. Until about 5 days ago, (i.e. before my recent thoughts on women, sex and shame), I wanted to go to Kings and get that BA in Religion, Philosophy and Ethics. Crikey, what’s a woman to do with all this information that makes her cunty juices a flow?

I WANT IT ALL!!!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Now, if only I could get myself to concentrate on this book instead of imagining all the things I could be doing when I am scholar again. And really, I need to take a chill pill because I’ll probably not get an offer from the Smart People™ universities at all.

Addendum:
As a tie-in with my previous entries about sex and shame and Christianity, how about this quote from the above mentioned Gospel of Mary Magdalene:

“As the ancient proverb says: “That which is not lived is not redeemed.” If Yeshua, considered as the Messiah and the Christ (from Greek christos, a rendering of the Hebrew mashiah), did not live his sexuality, the sexuality would be unredeemed. In that case, he would not be a Saviour in the full sense of the word. This eventually led to the institution of a logic in Christianity that was more orientated to death than life. This was especially the case in Western Roman Christianity:

Jesus Christ did not live his sexuality;
Therefore sexuality is unredeemed;
Therefore sexuality is essentially a bad thing;
Therefore living your sexuality can be degrading
And can make you guilty.

This kind of guilt-ridden sexuality can make us truly ill. Thus the very origin of our life, in its physical sense - “in the image of the Creator” - is logically transformed into an instrument of death. Could it be that we Westerners, driven by our collective unconscious guilt, are still suffering the consequences of this logic today?”

Uh, that would be a yes.

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